Monday, February 15, 2010

My room.

It held me. Something black with winged arms like a beast or a bat. I felt dazed and I had blood and skin under my fingernail. I was crying and sounds came out of me that I didn't realize I could make. The room which is too cold to be in for more than a few minutes suddenly felt warm to me. The thing wanted me to feel safe in it's arms and I did before I realized I needed to get out of there. Something told me to stay. I fell down on my way to the door. The cats were freaking out, staring at the stairs as if something had followed me.

My mom says we are protected by god and the things we go through are making us stronger without us realizing it.

I said a prayer. I asked for angels to protect me but I asked that I didn't see them because I would get scared. Held by white wings instead of ones clawed and bony. I don't know how to pray. I don't know which god would trap me in sickness for so long. I don't know which god would let so many disasters happen all over the world.

Someday maybe we will know the answers.

The room is off limits. My body is off limits to anything wicked trying to manifest inside.

Deliver us from evil.


Chase said...

we need to chat soon.
tell me more.

I was in near-tears when I read this, and I can't explain why.

May your body be off limits to anything wicked trying to manifest inside.

May we be delivered from evil.

Kanwalful said...

Without suffering, there would be no compassion.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're at least staying out of the room for now... Just keep feeling around the house to make sure that you don't encounter anything else. It's possible there could be residual energy around. You're sensitive now, try to keep it that way so nothing can creep up on you.