Sunday, January 10, 2010

Bipolar disorder is a complex genetic disorder. The mood swings associated with it alternate from major, or clinical, depression to mania or extreme elation. The mood swings can range from very mild to extreme, and they can happen gradually or suddenly within a timeframe of minutes to hours. When mood swings happen frequently, the process is called rapid cycling. Along with the dramatic mood swings, patients with bipolar disorder may have disturbances in thinking. They may also have distortions of perception and impairment in social functioning.

Panic disorder is different from the normal fear and anxiety reactions to stressful events in our lives. Panic disorder is a serious condition that strikes without reason or warning. Symptoms of panic disorder include sudden attacks of fear and nervousness, as well as physical symptoms such as sweating and a racing heart. During a panic attack, the fear response is out of proportion for the situation, which often is not threatening. Over time, a person with panic disorder develops a constant fear of having another panic attack, which can affect daily functioning and general quality of life.

An individual with major depression, or major depressive disorder, feels a profound and constant sense of hopelessness and despair. Major depression is marked by a combination of symptoms that interfere with the person's ability to work, study, sleep, eat, and enjoy once pleasurable activities. Major depression may occur only once but more commonly occurs several times in a lifetime.

Borderline personality disorder is a mental illness that causes intense mood swings, impulsive behaviors, and severe problems with relationships and self-worth. People with this disorder often have other problems such as depression, eating disorders, or substance abuse.

dear doctors..
can you just pick one?
i could even deal with two.
but not all of them.
not all of this.
not all of this, sometimes all at once.

fuck the world. fuck this sticky blood all over my fingers. it's coming from my bottom lip but i am too sick to get up and look at the damage. they are so dry. they are cracking off my face. i have a fever. fuck the world. fuck this crippling sickness. fuck side effects from medication. this better be worth it. i can't ride this roller coaster any longer. "jady is the only person who can get her off the couch."


Teffers said...

Wow! Don't fuck the world, the world is past its sell-by date for sure! Hope things get better :) (maybe you should ask the doctors to not even bother picking one?) x

Ashlie said...

i gave up on doctors before they could give up on me.

Rachel Reprobate said...

aw, you have guts for this one. i have two of these four and one other...but i'd never have the guts to lay it on the table for the world. kudos to you. love ya!

Kanwalful said...

I don't have any of these... So I can't really say much. Except you'll pull through. You're good enough. I hope that means something to you.